You must really really hate what you see in the mirror then. Given you voted for the party with the get brexit done tagline whilst also systematically making poor people poorer, cutting council services, decimating the emergency services, dropping bombs on folks who pose a minimal threat to the UK and ******* off the people of Scotland, Northern Ireland and Wales at the same time.
Don't you live/ work in Great Ayton? So the Richmond constituency, and voted independent? I'm in the same constituency, and the only independent in that constituency was Nick Jardine a very hard brexiter (who was going to stand for the brexit party), and who wanted a "clean break" from the EU? If so, you (and the country) got exactly the carnage what you voted for, albeit not the party doing it. You certainly don't seem to argue from a remain/ least damaging or even soft brexit point of view, and didn't vote labour which would have tried better to protect everything you mention there.
People can vote tory (or a local MP) for other policies or reasons as a priority and maybe brexit was second fiddle, or they believed one of the 12 versions which wasn't hard/ worst version ever brexit? The latter might have been a bit naive, but at least he's admitting it's a ****-up (or that brexit is), and he might not vote that way again.
Some people can vote one way for one reason (for themselves or their family), and yet argue for their friends to vote for other parties (contradictory to their own vote) which would be better for their friends.
Some people don't have a clue and vote for parties that are worse for themselves, worse for those worse off, worse for the NHS etc, through nievity. I know loads who did this, and employ a few of them too, albeit I probably wouldn't going forward.
I possibly could vote tory (and have years ago), and argue for that side, as it might make me better off personally (and I'm fine either way), but for the last few I've voted labour to help the rest of my family, friends who aren't as comfortable.