"I can’t handle any stress, or conflict any more, and any patience I had has been eroded. My temper is short and my ability to juggle plates (not literally) has gone."
Are you me?
I long to get to a place in my life where I can just be rather than having to be. After years of struggles - some on here know a bit of my depression history etc so not going to harp on in detail - I came to a dead stop in October last year - couldn’t go any further in any way, couldn’t even put two thoughts together. Totally out of ability to do anything or care anymore. Unable to deal with expectations of either others or of myself of myself. Divorce, isolation,work,my own crippling lack of self worth, everything over the last 3-4 years just broke me down until there I was with concerned colleagues (friends) getting me sent home from work by HR and into help. Was the worst place I’ve reached since the late 90s. A dead stop. I was poorly. Only my son meant anything and kept me going - I cannot let him down. With help I’m in a much better place mentally now thankfully and will try to be kinder to myself and understand I can’t be everything to everyone or for everyone and I can’t continue to care about everything, I just can’t, it’s too wearying and I don’t have the energy. I will endeavour to just be for beings sake. I think (hope) I’ll find that place of calm and peace and be ok.
I hope all with issues do.
Edit: I kind of feel embarrassed I wrote that now. Like I shouldn’t have. Odd.