PTSD..

[Boro in Devon]

Opening up, understanding yourself and the situation that you are in, are a good start to know how to fix your problems.
Keep strong and keep talking and letting those who care about you into your thoughts.
Things will get better, for you.

 

[El Guapo]

"I can’t handle any stress, or conflict any more, and any patience I had has been eroded. My temper is short and my ability to juggle plates (not literally) has gone."

Are you me?

I long to get to a place in my life where I can just be rather than having to be. After years of struggles - some on here know a bit of my depression history etc so not going to harp on in detail - I came to a dead stop in October last year - couldn’t go any further in any way, couldn’t even put two thoughts together. Totally out of ability to do anything or care anymore. Unable to deal with expectations of either others or of myself of myself. Divorce, isolation,work,my own crippling lack of self worth, everything over the last 3-4 years just broke me down until there I was with concerned colleagues (friends) getting me sent home from work by HR and into help. Was the worst place I’ve reached since the late 90s. A dead stop. I was poorly. Only my son meant anything and kept me going - I cannot let him down. With help I’m in a much better place mentally now thankfully and will try to be kinder to myself and understand I can’t be everything to everyone or for everyone and I can’t continue to care about everything, I just can’t, it’s too wearying and I don’t have the energy. I will endeavour to just be for beings sake. I think (hope) I’ll find that place of calm and peace and be ok.

I hope all with issues do.

Edit: I kind of feel embarrassed I wrote that now. Like I shouldn’t have. Odd.

 

[Ingleby_Flash]

I only thought it was for people in the armed services. The more I watch and read about it, I am starting to think I have it more than depression. I think work and my personal family life has taken such a toll on me that I barely sleep and have massive panic attacks. Has anyone here been diagnosed with it and how do you manage it? Anti depressants have never worked for me

Was diagnosed with it when I was 18 (40+ years ago) after a particularly unfortunate motorbike accident. I’d never heard of it at the time, symptoms were depression mainly at the time - random crying episodes, fücked up sleep, short temper. In the next ten years or more it was random ‘black dogs’ short temper and again fücked up sleep, if any. Maybe some of that would’ve been part of my personality anyway. But it did resolve eventually and a lot of the time life seemed normal, apart from the first year or so I didn’t feel like a victim.

 

[Bristolboro]

"I can’t handle any stress, or conflict any more, and any patience I had has been eroded. My temper is short and my ability to juggle plates (not literally) has gone."

Are you me?

I long to get to a place in my life where I can just be rather than having to be. After years of struggles - some on here know a bit of my depression history etc so not going to harp on in detail - I came to a dead stop in October last year - couldn’t go any further in any way, couldn’t even put two thoughts together. Totally out of ability to do anything or care anymore. Unable to deal with expectations of either others or of myself of myself. Divorce, isolation,work,my own crippling lack of self worth, everything over the last 3-4 years just broke me down until there I was with concerned colleagues (friends) getting me sent home from work by HR and into help. Was the worst place I’ve reached since the late 90s. A dead stop. I was poorly. Only my son meant anything and kept me going - I cannot let him down. With help I’m in a much better place mentally now thankfully and will try to be kinder to myself and understand I can’t be everything to everyone or for everyone and I can’t continue to care about everything, I just can’t, it’s too wearying and I don’t have the energy. I will endeavour to just be for beings sake. I think (hope) I’ll find that place of calm and peace and be ok.

I hope all with issues do.

Edit: I kind of feel embarrassed I wrote that now. Like I shouldn’t have. Odd.

Don't feel embarrassed. Your words are honest, meaningful, helpful.

 

[sadgit]

It is my wife's birthday tomorrow and she is going away for 2 days to be away from me. I'm broken as I am ruining an amazing marriage. I love how open people are on here, I really appreciate it.

I don't have any family, I had to cut my brother, mum and dad from my life as they dragged me into the gutter. So lonely never having a family who loved you.