You're not. The world would be diminished without you in it.Thinking tonight I’m better of dead
Good luck with those lottery numbers mateYou're not. The world would be diminished without you in it.
No neverHave you met any member off here ?
no you bloody won't be! I was close to doing just that a few times over the last 18 months. I thought no one would care, how wrong I would have been. Doing so would impact many more people that you will ever understand. I thankfully no long have those dark as hell thoughts but I still struggle to cope with my head at times. I now actually like me for the 1st time in 50 years! I am not fixed and I need to do things for my mental health to keep me in check. I do yoga and Pilates (classes), Meditation (LOADS of free apps/website and it isn't just sitting quiet), I walk again, swim. All in moderation as I did try to do far too much at once and I was doing myself more harm than good. Options like the gym? or groups like Andy Mans Club? to meet like minded people? I go to AMC each Monday, they have helped me so much. Happy to go with you to one as it is hard to walk in for the 1st time.Thinking tonight I’m better of dead
SO DO I hence why I go to AMC and Yoga etc to see real people and good for the mental heath mate!! xI am supposed to be working (from home )
Which I hate
I have No contact with Anyone at all and despite repeatidly mentioning this nothing changes
I’m just gonna stay In bed I’ve had enough
It's going to feel like the hardest thing in the world, but get out of bed and do something small but positive. Even if it is starting to read a book you have wanted to read for a while, or starting to learn a new hobby you have fancied. Give yourself a little victory and achievement no matter how small or insignificant it as feel right now. Small but positive steps, my distractions where reading and drawing but what works/worked for me might not work for you, maybe look into joining a club and the first step would be emailing a club. Honestly it will feel like you have a mountain to climb but each small step takes you closer to the top of the mountain.I am supposed to be working (from home )
Which I hate
I have No contact with Anyone at all and despite repeatidly mentioning this nothing changes
I’m just gonna stay In bed I’ve had enough
Seconded - I find it very helpfulMeditation (LOADS of free apps/website and it isn't just sitting quiet)
This... I did the same a few years back and it was surprisingly satisfying.Give yourself a little victory and achievement no matter how small or insignificant it as feel right now.
Sorry for everything you are going through but I think you need professional help. Call the Samaritans and/or speak to the critical care team at Roseberry Park. I had to call them twice and they were amazing. Once when I was about to "do it", like I said I no longer feel or think about ending it all, but you need to callView attachment 31400
for context these are the pills I’ve stockpiled and which I was about 2 mins away from taking last night. Mixture of prescription drugs and painkillers. They’ve since been thrown on the floor
For those of us who haven't suffered from mental illness AET has highlighted how common this is, which I am grateful for. I am dubious about the ice cold shower though Frank!
Eeek. Good way to meet folks, I am sure.Don't be dubious by this. This is why more and more people are doing cold water swimming.. I did for a few months last year and swam in the North Sea at 6am each day but the round trip was too much before I started work. Loads of groups out there for it and not recommended to do it alone another way to meet people.