Borotommo
Well-known member
I've had a few years, now, struggling with a number of issues, and have sought professional help, guidance from those with experience, and opened up to and with a reasonable cross section of people who've exhibited similar symptoms as mine.
I've belatedly realised just how varied and complex these problems are across our society, and how nigh impossible it will be for us (as a caring society) to cope with the issues, the causes, the difficulties, and to build the remedies and solutions which will be necessary to offer foundations that our young generations can build upon and thrive.
I'd like to share some of my personal experiences and challenges, in the hope that others may also be able, and feel free to, bring out stuff that may well have been locked away or found difficult to express.
I was out, today, with my Mrs (a Villa fan) to watch the cup final at a local pub, and bumped into a guy we knew from years before. He openly discussed his struggles with Asperger's, from a young age, and how exhausting this made his life. His constant hyper-sensitivity resonated with me, as I recalled my descent from a position of "success" and responsibility to a gibbering wreck, frightened when the phone rang. The reliance upon adrenaline, to deliver energy and focus, replaced by a nervous, poisonous (cortisol) output which left me tired, jittery and terrified.
I've since resigned, and moved on. No longer capable to absorb the trials that most do daily. I'm happy that I'm free from that turmoil, but that grind gas been replaced by a lack of purpose, a raison d'etre.
I'm lucky, in that I feel most of my travails are reasonably temporary. I know my deep-seated drive for success was a response to the relationship I never really cemented, with my Dad, but that's for another day.
The lad I talked with today has lived with a torment for years. I'm glad he had an hour or so to get it off his chest this afternoon. I was listening.
I've belatedly realised just how varied and complex these problems are across our society, and how nigh impossible it will be for us (as a caring society) to cope with the issues, the causes, the difficulties, and to build the remedies and solutions which will be necessary to offer foundations that our young generations can build upon and thrive.
I'd like to share some of my personal experiences and challenges, in the hope that others may also be able, and feel free to, bring out stuff that may well have been locked away or found difficult to express.
I was out, today, with my Mrs (a Villa fan) to watch the cup final at a local pub, and bumped into a guy we knew from years before. He openly discussed his struggles with Asperger's, from a young age, and how exhausting this made his life. His constant hyper-sensitivity resonated with me, as I recalled my descent from a position of "success" and responsibility to a gibbering wreck, frightened when the phone rang. The reliance upon adrenaline, to deliver energy and focus, replaced by a nervous, poisonous (cortisol) output which left me tired, jittery and terrified.
I've since resigned, and moved on. No longer capable to absorb the trials that most do daily. I'm happy that I'm free from that turmoil, but that grind gas been replaced by a lack of purpose, a raison d'etre.
I'm lucky, in that I feel most of my travails are reasonably temporary. I know my deep-seated drive for success was a response to the relationship I never really cemented, with my Dad, but that's for another day.
The lad I talked with today has lived with a torment for years. I'm glad he had an hour or so to get it off his chest this afternoon. I was listening.
