Thanks mate. Never had a FOA before.
Yes so so so much better. My mind is calm. I live in total chaos, in my head and my actions. i.e. I have dozens of drawers full of my stuff, in no order, just piled in. I leave my crap all over the place. I can never find anything, which sends me mental. I have spent the last week decluttering, which in turn helps my mind be calm. Just one small thing but huge for me. I always said to my wife, that is just me but I've realised, it doesn't need to be. (Still learning at 52). Therapy really pulled out all the childhood trauma I had buried away, now is time to let go of it. I've talked about it, cannot change it. My family aren't part of my life, they have no idea what I've been going through as there is no contact, I'm at peace with it now. Taking it hour by hour. Having to go to hospital a few weeks ago due to malnutrition really scared me. Mrs S and I are doing well because I'm not acting like a nutter. I'm sleeping much better, eating well and cooking some nice meals and not wandering off and being distracted by something else and go in the kitchen to find everything is burned. Do 1 thing at a time, not 10. Early days yet again, but this feels different. I just want to be happy, I love my life when I feel like this.
Long post and really appreciate you asking. Thank you.