sweet_left_foot
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Of you.
Can someone help
- Thread starter Aet290204
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Of you.
sadgit
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100% this... I always put people (my teams) before me and always hated me, then I broke after 30 years of self hatred. I have counselling and hypnotherapy, and now I actually like me, most of the time
Go to Andy Mans Club mate, I drove 35 minutes to one last night. Amazing to just talk to other blokes who really do understand!Hey aet, just checking in and keeping this thread going as hoping you feel able to reply soon and let us know you are OK. I've had a particularly s***y week myself and am just pulling round now (family bereavement). I know it feels easier to resign to things at the moment but look at the support these people have for you. We want you to keep going because we all know, even the ones, like me, who are or have gone through what you are, that it will get better. There's so many people routing for you at, just let us see your ok
Mr_Fridge
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Can’t add much more apart from I hope you know people on here care about each other. Lots of life experience.
I hope The Fens are looking lovely in the sunshine today. I do sort of miss living down there, will need to get back one day. I don’t suspect much changes in that part of the world although you did tell me the other month that Walk the Dog in Chatteris is called something else now.
I hope The Fens are looking lovely in the sunshine today. I do sort of miss living down there, will need to get back one day. I don’t suspect much changes in that part of the world although you did tell me the other month that Walk the Dog in Chatteris is called something else now.
Aet290204
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When I was a kid my nana lived near that pub. Buggered if I can remember what it’s called now though.
Rob has emailed me - I’m fine. Well obviously I’m not fine. But I’m still here. Arm is red and sore from a pathetic attempt at self harming last night. I will reply to anyone who has messaged when I feel a bit less stressed. Anxiety is crippling isn’t it.
"Anxiety is crippling isn’t it."
Yes it is Aet, it's f@@king awful...I've spent 3 days in bed cos I lost my grandad on Saturday and it's knocked the hell out of me, not just the grief but the anxiety kicked in massively thinking about my own mortality etc. I'm pulling round now and got meself up and dressed, doing bits in the house that got neglected because we've basically been waiting for it to happen since last Wednesday, trying to remember all the adventures he took us on up Eston hills when we were kids.
It's a struggle everyday...I've got a massive opportunity coming up on the 1st July and all I can focus on is the wrong side of all the "what ifs" that come with it and have nearly cancelled twice already
Yes it is Aet, it's f@@king awful...I've spent 3 days in bed cos I lost my grandad on Saturday and it's knocked the hell out of me, not just the grief but the anxiety kicked in massively thinking about my own mortality etc. I'm pulling round now and got meself up and dressed, doing bits in the house that got neglected because we've basically been waiting for it to happen since last Wednesday, trying to remember all the adventures he took us on up Eston hills when we were kids.
It's a struggle everyday...I've got a massive opportunity coming up on the 1st July and all I can focus on is the wrong side of all the "what ifs" that come with it and have nearly cancelled twice already
American_Mary
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Take your time and don't put yourself under any pressure to respond, people care about you and wanted to know you were safe, sometimes giving yourself these to dos can create further anxieties and stresses, all everyone wants on here is for you to start feeling better and be in a place where your darkest thoughts are part of your past and not your present, take care and be kind to yourself.
Legz, nothing prepares you for the loss of a loved one, all the thoughts of how you will cope go out of the window, you can feel completely bereft, alone and lost, the pain doesn't get easier it just visits less often but usually when you least expect it or want it to, the great memories you have of time together will help a bit at first and then become the greatest of comforts later.
All you can do on the 1st is your best at the time and if that's not the right fit it's not failure just difference, I think at times we're all too hard on ourselves and take on the expectations of others, good luck and grieve as you need to.
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Erimus74
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Sorry to hear that Legz
My grandad, Pop to us, was a great man who I loved & missed when he left us, big part of me growing up, another big Boro fan
My dads dad, never met my mams dad, when my grandaughter was born I told my daughter that im to be called Pop for my pop
Hope the days get easier for you x
Aet290204
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Sorry to hear about your grandad.
I wouldn’t cancel - not unless you really are unable to do it - it’ll give you something to focus on. I somehow still manage to switch the work laptop on each day - no idea how - and manage to carry on working albeit that I find it difficult to concentrate.
Nash
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Good Morning,
Nash
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Good morning h
Hope you are feeling a little better today, sorry to hear about you fine and date that didn't go so well. If i can i would like to help. I will paypal or Venmo or (whichever avenue you have) the cash to cover the cost of your ticket. Its not charity its a gift to someone who is hurting. I too have been in a dark spot and understand the difficulties. I sincerely hope you accept this offer and understand it is a wonderful world and people will always help a fellow human being whether it being emotionally or financially , you are not alone. Thanks and best of luck to you.
Canyoudigit
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Tremendous gesture that,pleased to hear you're still with us and good luck in finding a happy place.
sadgit
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I know a guy who cuts himself to stop his pain from anxiety and depression.. and it makes me wince with the thought of it... but I down 2L of vodka without giving it a thought (well I do but fk it it numbs the pain).
Nothing pathetic about it mate, just needing a release.. Talk to people! there are loads of groups out there now! I keep banging on, but if I hadn't found AMC, I wouldn't be here to type this message!
Glad you are still with us.. many people aren't due to this.
Aet290204
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Hello
That is a tremendous gesture and I’m blown away by it.
In any case I had a conversation with my boss today about something else entirely (basically why working from home is making me so bloody miserable) and he’s offered to fight it for me. I know he loves taking on these scumbags and does this sort of thing all the time. He helped me a few years ago sort out an unhelpful builder.
We shall see.
Onwards and upwards.
I’ll read the thread properly now I’m a bit calmer. But I need a break.
Sadgit thank you for your messages.
It didn’t quite get to cutting because I wasn’t ***ed enough but I’m just bruised and covered in scratches from hitting / scratching myself.
sadgit
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Just talk mate. You are not alone in this. It may feel like it at times but you aren't. My name is Mark by the way. Not arsed who knows as I've hidden behind so many masks over the years I really don't care anymore.
Aet290204
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Cheers mate.
One of the good things that has happened over the years is that I visited Australia three times. Albeit as a lone traveller. So some sadness I had no one to share the experience with.
Never went to NZ, much to my regret.
Don’t have the dosh now unfortunately. Maybe one day.
Hopefully one day, will have a beer when you do! Keep on keeping on. And anyone who sends you a s***y message about a parking fine after a date isn't worth bothering about anyway.